Apologies, ~ The World, and the Fool.

Okay. I am missing Jack. Home is so quiet. I sit and cradle Jack's present to me, the little stray that we found on holiday, Caerwys (which means "love", in Welsh).And I have Logan. Big, comfortable Logan, whose birthday means he is a cross between the Magician and The Wheel of Fortune.

And... I still miss Jackory. I keep telling myself love transcends time and space, this life and the next. I keep telling Jackory thanks, and for him not to stay by me, as I know he has his own pathway now and he has given me so much. He's taught me a lot. Particularly about love. And I have to say other types of love, well some of them fall short.

I've been thinking about "love" and have come to realise that although "love is a many splendid thing", we come from Love don't we and we return to love. And perhaps after all, when we think of true love, what ever it's origin or place in our life, true love is....I don't think I have words really. A family friend who became "uncle Theo" to my daughter said that love is making someone's life easier, better. Well Jackory certainly did that. He gave me unselfish, unconditional love 24/7, 365 days a year. It didn't matter if I was fatter, thinner, spottier, richer, poorer.... sick or well. He loved me just as much regardless.

He was utterly faithful, utterly protective, utterly companionable, utterly understanding, he was devoted to others and would protect the young, old, frail, vulnerable, whether animal or human.
He was every inch a gentleman of a dog and had his ethics and never wrecked one thing in the house. He was fun, laughter, company, comfort, solace, a good listener, he was strong, gentle, brave and true.

At the vets, a song came into my heart and head. I started to sing it. It is "What becomes of the broken hearted". The final few lyrics say this:

"Now what's become of the broken-hearted
Who had love that's now departed?
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I'll be searching everywhere
Just to find someone to care.
I'll be looking everyday
I know I'm gonna find a way
Nothings gonna stop me now
I'll find a way somehow
I'll be searching everywhere".

Jackory, in tarot terms, was part of my world. He was a big part of my balance and harmony, And I his. And yes I miss him. But I know he is on his journey, as he told me, a couple of months before any of his symptoms. Jack told me in my dream he had to leave, that he wanted to be a search and rescue dog.

Jackory was full of care. Like the song says, he is on his new pathway now. And I don't wish to halt his pathway, so I send him love and light.

When I miss him that's what I do. I send him a rainbow of peace and light, and energy, and love. To help him on his journey. I can cry, or I can do this. Yes okay sometimes I cry too. And I've eaten my fair share of chocolate, crisps and ice cream since he's left us. But deep down I know, love truly is a many splendid thing. I know Jackory was only a dog, but you see if you think about it, dogs so often give us the true love not all of us get in human terms. Maybe we humans only get to experience some of the splendour of it. After all, creation comes from it. And like Jackory I'm on a new sort of level in my life. After all, what comes after the card called The World? Well it is the Fool. Only thing is, I have to figure out my pathway. And the thing about dogs is that they are good path-finders. I guess it's time to trust love is truly a many splendoured thing, and that it surpases what we call time and space. It's time for me to take a leap of faith...

And know that wherever you go, you take the love with you.

Godlove my Jackory.

King of Wands.

Well Jack is still teaching me, although he is no longer with me as he was....



I did a spread yesterday. Partly because guilt and emotions were kicking in. I posted it on a forum and got replies, and it has made me think. So I am posting on here to pass on some knowledge/understanding in the hope it may help someone, after all tarot / readings are about teachings, and that was what Jackory was about too, Godlove him. Bear in mind when I did the spread, I was not grounded really and to be honest my thoughts are for the most part linked to the basic meanings for the Archeon tarot.



The 5 card spread:



Card One: The situation for Jack
The SunI am unsure of the Sun. I think it means that being happy was really important to him, he certainly liked to be happy and I'm not sure he was truly happy given my home situation over the last two years or so.



Card 2: Was Jack ready to go?

King Wands fire/fire.I had Jack cremated. It says in the Archeon handbook on this card "When at last he rested, he knew the action had been justified". This gives me a little peace. A little. I love this dog with all my heart. Some people have soul mates (human soul mates). Jack was my soul mate, and me his.



Card 4: What Jack is now feeling... 7 Pentacles

Being looked after in spirit maybe. Growing stronger. I can't really focus on this card to be honest. I would like to, just can't at this moment link in to other vibes on this card.Was I right in letting him go? 4 knight Pentacles. For Practical reasons, yes - i.e. health, quality of life. But not as certain as the King would be. Yes, also happened, it wasn't planned for yesterday. It was in my thoughts and I felt strong enough to do it at the time.



Card 5: Is Jack happy now? 6 pentacles.

Again I can't really read this card. 6 is often linked to love isn't it, and coming together. Perhaps it means he thinks of it as a new lease of life. Theres just coins on this card really. It doesnt speak to me today. It means success I know. Perhaps he is pleased to now be in a better world, in spirit and free from aches, pains and free to be free if you know what I mean.



The replies I got made me think the following:-

*Someone wrote about accupuncture helping with pain control, and yes it would have helped. After all when we are free from pain we can live a better quality of life, and longer with a condition.

*A comment about the King of Wands - about the control. Think fairy wands here, think about Pagan wands, think healing wands. Wands are energy, fire.... Jack did have energy, he liked being in control in good, positive ways, like for example standing in between a petrified cat and Logan, an enthusiastic, bounding afghan puppy - he took control of the situation without hurting anyone (he could have for example, attacked Logan here but he didn't). I like thinking of Jack as the Wand King. He brought in a lot of healing, a lot of changes, a lot of making the best of a situation, he enjoyed life with an energy and a vigour, and could play with things on his own.



Reflection: A death on the earth plane means a re-birth on the spiritual plane. The other thing I've learnt is that animal passings are hurried. The vet hurries, the animal funeral people hurry, it is all hurried.



Jack's always had lots of teachings for me when he was with me. I've learnt something in all of this.

• Don't be hurried. If you experience a loss of an animal, don't let others hurry you if you can.


• Do ask questions and make people respond to you (ie feeling uncomfortable about the speed, ask, don't let yourself be carried away with the tide)


• Jack was special, really special. Jack is the canine version of Arthur of the Round Table, he had his ethics and a great love of humanity that surpassed the agonies he had experienced before we met each other. He was just like King Arthur, but in animal form. Animals teach, as well as guide. And in such a humble way. If you take the word "Dog" and reverse the letters, you get "God". God, Divine Love and Light, - source energy, we come from love, we return to love. Love as they say, is a "many splended thing". How wonderful it must be to return to the source of Love. In Ghost, Patrick Swazie says "You take the love with you". However I think you leave it to. Love is an energy. So is cyring and grief. I'm going to try to mix in with the higher energies of love at some point today, just to try to link in to him somehow and then hopefully I will know he is okay, as in the emotions/guilt thing I can't feel him around me. It may be he is in recovery, it may be he has already started his new journey. I don't want to call him back. I just want to tap into the love we had here and send him love where he is. When ever I had experienced a bad day, he would know automatically, and would settle himself a little away and I am sure he would send his good energies over, and soon I would feel more grounded, and he'd come over for a hug and a play. So I just have to wait, and send him love wherever he is, and know that love survives time/space/viels of this world and the next.


• Think outside of the box. The High Priestess, with her knowledge, may not always be wise. To be wise, means the successful application of knowledge, and sometimes you need to think widely - as in me knowing about accupuncture, but never thinking of it for Jackory.

With love and light

Gina and Jackory

Goodnight Jackory, with love and thanksx

Lord, keep us safe this night,
Secure from All our Fears
May Angels guide us while we sleep
Until morning light appears.

xoxo

Love and light to my beloved Jack, my heart dog, my soul dog, my soul mate

xoxo

Coronation Street and Laws of Attraction.

For those of you who are not soap fans, Ken is the retired school teacher and husband of Dierdre, who has just had a bit of a fling with the lovable Martha, who serves tea in proper bone china, in a narrow boat called Utopia, listening to classical music whilst burning essential oils and the odd swan lifts it's head to try to peak through the windows as Ken gazes wistfully at the beautiful, cleaver, artistic Martha, who is so close, and yet so far.

Martha represents Ken's Utopia, his ideal soul mate, as does the boat, which brings him a haven of peace and tranquility. The comfy chairs with their homely patterns, the smells of peace and comfort from the essential oils, the gentle light of an odd candle; home cooking, and taking life slowly have certainly worked their magic upon Ken...

You know, Cosmic Ordering, Laws of Attraction and The Secret all say a great deal about positive thinking and attidues, but how many of us who long for a loving caring partner, think about things like where you sleep. Do you take up all of the bed, so there isn't really any room for someone to share it with you? Do you have that comforting chair and place it somewhere where you can imagine the love of your life sitting... It's interesting that whenever Martha wanted Ken to be around, she always had cooked / prepared enough for two...

If having a rough ride with a relationship, Martha's Utopia can maybe give us some tips as to working at making things smoother at home. I think Martha's tips would be:-

Make the effort with a home made dish of some sort that is his/her favourite
Bring in tranquility (soft lights, burning fragrant oils, like Lavender, Tangerine, Ylang Ylang, Patchouli)
Making time to listen and giving time for them to relax...

I looked up the meaning of "Martha" on the net, and it means "lady", or "mistress of the house"- I wonder if the writer knew this before naming the character! Anyway, if thinking of an appropriate tarot card for that, the Empress would be my choice....

What energies can you change for the better around you today? I know I need to change some at home....