A tricky day, Jacks not eating

But first - New Baby
Introducing new family baby; isn't she lovely, pictured with her handsome, delighted brother (at least he was, now he isn't so keen!)



Jackory's lost interest in food today ... I SO want him to enjoy his days, including eating!

- All the dogs feeding time schedules have gone to pot.
- Jack's not hungry a.m.; then is picky, obviously suspicious
- It's a problem getting the N=tense etc down him.
- Hand feeding more often - Sometimes Jack refuses food.

Thoughts :-

• Maybe too much variety
• Already 6 pm - but Jack has only had the N-tense, Urinary Support, Aloe Vera, with a little fish and some treats. F. has just now taken them out for a walk I hope they both come back hungry. I need to get back to the earlier routine.
• I think I need to add vit / mineral treats

Replacement Necklace ready- I hope it will pick him up; Jack is slowing down generally,it may be due to the hot and stormy weather - one thing Jack doesn't like is a storm. (Also fireworks, & cars that go "bang" !)

Healing words: :- Illness is not a punishment, but a stimulant to life.

A wish for you: May your heart sing & your soul rejoice in experiencing the wonder of life.

Love laughter, light to all - Godlove
Gina & Jackory

Life's all about love.

Healing Thanks to F's dinner out, I'd recovered enough to give Jack some healing, using some cd's and two crystals. Jackory is moving now as the healing goes on, as if telling me where to heal him. When he has had enough he sort of looks at me, gets up, gives himself a shake and then moves off to a quiet spot to doze. He then relaxes completely, which is nice.

Neclace ordered from the bloke in the market. So it should be ready tomorrow.

Web sites on dog bladder cancer for you :

http://cancer.landofpuregold.com/palliative.htm

http://www.caninecancerawareness.org/html/Diet.html#Recipe

http://www.dogcancer.net/forum/viewtopic.php?p=676

http://www.dogcancerblog.com/

http://www.utopiavalley.com/acatalog/Medicinal_Mushrooms.html (this UK site sells the mushrooms mentioned in the above sites)

http://www.curing-canine-cancer.com/index.php?gclid=CLONzOeO4pQCFRSb1QodUi6uQQ

You will find on them

1. Recipies for dogs with cancer that do not "feed" the cancer. Interestingly they mention to avoid carrots, I always thought carrots helped with cancer but apparantly not as cancer or tumours just love sugar.
2. Help on quality of life; ie play. Jack has been asking more and more to go into the garden - Today we played with Jack's beloved and favourite, bestest yellow ball! I couldn't help notice though that he didn't play with it as much as he usually does, and was mostly quite content with lying in the grass just chewing on it. Oddly it was also what my vet mentioned to me on Saturday, about making the most of every day that I have with Jack.

A word of warning,- some of the above sites made me sit and just sob. I want to try the mushrooms mentioned though if I can afford them.

Frustration: Not enough hours in the day for me right now. It frustrates me I am so slow on everything and F. at home not well doesnt help! Food wise I am having to be much more canny. Jack is going off the fish cooked in goats milk, so today I tried cooked chicken pieces . I should have boiled it myself, saving the juice to mix with some of the mung beans I have soaking. I still need to tempt Jack by hand feeding specially before 12 noon.

SAD NEWS Another service man died in afghan today. Puts everything to do with Jackory in context really. Humans are loosing their fight not just in Afghan, but with what is troubling Jack too and my heart goes out to all. When you think about it, life is really just about love isn't it. In loosing, we learn just really how much we love the person / pet / life we have lost. And sometimes we need to just simply let them go when the time is right, I know that.

Animals and Love : On the "Richard and Judy" show today, a lion cub, Christian, that 38 years ago was bought from Harrods in London, and looked after by two guys who bought him, and who released him back into the wild, was way back in 1969, I was ten then! It's on You Tube also :



The story and the video just touches my heart - Not just for the blokes who arranged freedom for the lion, but the lion's obvious love and trust for them - when a year later, Christian sees his two "dad's" he runs to them and flings his paws around them. It's just love, pure love, endearing, all encompassing, never forgotten, LOVE.

Lammas this weekend. - Lughnasadah (31 July to 01 August), marking the middle of summer , the first of the harvest festivals. It is a time of giving thanks, for anything really. Also letting go of any injustice, or hurt, maybe even anger or hate... or any harmful thoughts that we have. Maybe even contemplating any good which has occured even though the experience has been harmful or unkind to us, remember the old saying about "every cloud has a silver lining".

It brings to mind something Venus wrote in a recent blog the other day, about a lady that had been through rough times and how it seemed that this lady was able to make lemonade out of the lemons life had thrown at her.

It is also a good time to get the house ready for the coming of Autumn and winter, so tidying up, sweeping up, repairs, thinking about earthly colours like orange, yellow, green...

The name of the festival reminds me of lamas! - ie. wool for spinning. You know animals give us so much don't they. So much bounty. It saddens me I am fifty next year and the beauty there is , the bounty of the earth, there is so much. I am so sad I never revelled in it when I was younger, as much as I do now.

If you look up on the net, those of you that are into cooking, you should find some excellent recipies for this period of the year.

Okay thats my bit for today. I wish you all love. I wish you the love that Jackory gives me - unconditional, always there. Always a comfort, always a joy. Always devoted. Never hurting.

My Thanks for Lammas - Thanks for the love I have in Jackory, my dog, my beau, my love, my light. He is my light house beacon when life chucks it's lemons at me, my anchor when it throws me into a stormy sea, and the lovable clown when life's pathway is rich with its bounty of happiness and joy, and abundance.

Godlove my Jackory. Godlove Christian, who is probably now playing with Born Free's Elsa in Heaven. And Godlove you too. I wish you joy and happiness (as it says in the song that plays along Christians' video!)

Gina and Jackory.xxx

Sunday, wet nose... lost necklace....house tidier

Seems like forever since I last wrote, I've been missing writing up my blog. When I came back from Ireland the house was such a tip! It is better now, F. has helped clean it up! The new baby is doing well, her Mum and Dad phoned me today.

Jackory - I've lots to tell you about him, but we will start off from yesterday really. He had all his important treatments, yesterday okay, you know the N-tense, Urinary Support, and the Kernals with the Digestive Enzyme. I have also found special Dogmilk, base is Goats milk, in Asda, which is great, as it is has several vits and herbs , Jack & Logan seem to enjoy it.

The Vets - Yesterday I took Jackory to the vets, he didn't want to go in. It is the third time now he has flatly refused and yesterday even made a beeline for the door, slipping his lead.

Fortunately our vet grabbed his collar and in the end, Jack had to be carried into the vets room. His check over went well, and basically, any change I take him for the vet to have a look . The vet said that he has lost some dogs with the growth in the bladder weeks or months after the initial diagnosis, but , - good news, he has one dog still going four years after the diagnosis. How brill is that.

Behind with everything: I am slow in the morning after my visit to Ireland, but slowly catching up bit by bit. Jack has taken, since I was away, not wanting to go for a wee in the yard outside, so this means we have to open up the back door which leads to the entry here and then after the entry, the gardens. He will then have a wee! ! ! Funny how they get out of oh whats the word, you know when you get used to doing things regularly.

Lost necklace: F. took both Jack and Logan out to the country park here this morning - sadly, Jack came back without his lovely pink necklace I had put on him. It was pink, made out of Rhodilite. I had worn them several times before I gave them to Jack. They always made me feel better when I had them on, they were sort of comfort beads really. They were made by a local man in the market here, and cost about £20 I think.

We went back to the park when I realised they were missing, and although I asked all the nature spirits, Divine Light and Love, and the trees, to guide us to them, they are still missing!

Food - No thanks Jack didn't want any thing to eat this morning, and about lunch time I had to hand feed him some white fish I had cooked in goats milk. About 3 hours after that I tried him with some senior food which had the N-tense and the Urinary support, but he refused it. I then tried about three times or so to get him to take the capsules - again no joy. I managed to get him to take the N-tense, but not the urinary support. Then about 6 pm Jack ate some lamb and veg mix with grated carrot, parsley and some sage. In it I had mashed up the apricot kernals which had been ground, and the Digestive Enzyme. Jack ate it up and licked the bowl, again no hand feeding great.

F. took me out to dinner which is nice and much appreciated, as I was really tired. I feel better now, a roast dinner cooked and washed up by someone else! Also two lattes, I love my coffee.

Jack v Logan I've had no energy or time really to do any healing work with Jackory, so this is urgently needed. I did manage to groom Logan today, he was looking a bit matted. He had a quick brush out, then F. helped me to rig up the hose outside so we could wash him then groom him again after. Had to have a break, F. took over for about 10mins or so, then I continued.

For some reason, it is easier to groom an afghan hounds coat when it is wet than when it is dry.

Tomorrow I have to concentrate on fitting in some healing for Jackory.

I hope all is well with you guys, drop me a line if you read this blog. It is nice to know someone reads it! Love and light, please light a candle for Jackory. Someone from France yesterday lit a candle for him, thank you so much

Gina Jackory and Logan

Thursday - catching up

Today has been a day of catching up, of sleep and then of tidying. I need to regroup a little because Jackory has had no healing since about Thursday.

I've sent some baby clothes off and some blankets for the new baby. Interestingly when I was trying to tidy some things in the bedroom today I came across a tiny piece of paper, it was the notice of my Grandmothers death - 21 July, 1988. 20 years ago! Interestingly our new baby was born on the 20th, only the day before. How weird is that...

Jackory looks in good fettle today, although he has been panting a bit, more because of the lovely weather we have had today, than anything. F. took him for a walk, and told me Jack had bit of a paddle today. His paws was a bit muddy when he came home, so I ended up giving him a cool shower to clean him up a bit.

I haven't got much more news really except I am longing to bring home my new little lady, it may be tomorrow. Part of my tidying has been to try to find her a place to be... but to be honest I have done little today, energy wise I am low so will keep this short and try and do some healing with some music upstairs with Jackory. I still haven't been able to play any c#d#s downstairs, am working on that.

Godlove to all
Gina and Jackory == please dont forget to light a candle for Jack, and send him some thoughts. HE does have two candles lit today, thank you so much jaqueline from Brazil, also to Venus who lit a candle for him a few days ago..

Oh my...

A short post today, because it is late and I am tired, looking forward to falling asleep! My daughter had her baby, my grand-daughter at the weekend. Sunday, the 20th. That make s my Grand daugther a 10 if you add up the 20 and 7, and the year, 2008. So a Wheel of Fortune baby born in the wheel of fortune year.

More tomorrow! Welcome into our world, little one. May it be full of love and light for y ou. Godlove!

Signs of a lighthouse on the horizon

Well at least, that is what it seems to be!

My daughters second baby is definitely on her / his way now (yes I think I know whether girl or boy, but we will have to wait and see. Especially as my gut feeling tells me different than my pendulum!) So news about that definitely later or maybe tomorrow. Gem you are in my thoughts hun and I wish I could have the baby for you so you don't get to have to do the delivery bit!

The baby in the picture is my Grandson, and Gem's first child. The colours in the picture, I know. I can't definitely say "aura" but they make you think aura, dont they, and most is a lovely orange. I am very proud of my Grandson, especially as he has been a model for "Cow and Gate" and also I just think he is super any way. I have a special bear I have put aside for him, an Irish Tara bear, which is absolutely massive, that I have called Cromwell. Cromwell just loves Children, and I hope my Grandson will cherish him as he gets older. He will I hope follow my Grandson through his life and be around for my Great Grandchildren!

Jackory likes bears too. When I first had Jack at home, he used to carry a very tiny bear around with him in his mouth. The bear was only as long as one of my fingers, but wherever Jack went, the bear went to.

On other matters, I seem to be managing better now. The new treats from Pets at Home are brilliant. They come in a sausage shape, like little sausages all joined together in a string. So all you do is pick one off, open it lengthwise, pop in the capsules and Jackory just takes it. Just like that! (Godlove Tommy Cooper, who I never took to when I was younger, but now I just think he is amazing).

Also the ready made meals are a bonus. I am not put out with all the preparation and the washing up. So all in all am bit by bit recovering slightly!

Okay today. Food for today:

Jackory ate some chicken treats delivered personally by my mum who gave him some hands on healing.
Followed by: fish cooked and served with the goat milk
Followed an hour by: his Raintree Urinary support and the N=tense, served in the little sausage treats from Pets at home.
He has also had a syringe 2.5 ml of aloe vera and a couple of drops of Star of Bethleham Bach Flower remedy.

That is so far so good this morning. Jack seems to be taking less water, I am still careful changing the water regularly so hopefully the once boiled water will be fresh and optimised with oxygen.

In the evening I put on a water thingy. It is a goldfish bowl filled with water and a pump. You can put in lovely fragrances, including Eucalyptus which helps with breathing. But I just fill it with normal water and it is on all night. I hope that this helps oxygenate or at least circulate the air, it is supposed to freshen up the air you see. Mine makes a noise, but it is an older version. I am sure that they have new versions which are quieter now. I know they now do them with lights on, so a blue one would be brilliant under the circumstances.

Can you help, please?
What I am missing is a downstairs cd player for Jackory, one that I can plug in that will play healing cd's classical music (including choppin) and healing tapes. So if any kind person would like to donate a cd/tape player, or Chopin cds or tapes to Jackory, it would really be appreciated! (I know this sounds strange but theres lots on music ie. Chopin and healing with water crystals on the web.
Dont mind swopping this either for a reading or for one of my bears dolls that I am selling so I can continue with Jackory's treatment.

Okay share thought for today: A smile is a curve that can straighten out a lot of things....

Nice that don't you think. And smiles are contagious. Jackie smiles and laughs a lot. I used to have a chihuahua who smiled when you smiled at him. He would open up his mouth and sort of pull or draw back his lips and sort of "grin".

Talking of chihuahuas you never guess what I saw in Pets at Home when I was shopping for Jackory. A pet stroller. Yes, thats right. Only £30 too. I thought it nice, thats if you don't always take them out in the stroller! Dogs do need to walk (I can hear Ceasar Milan's comments now... or failing that , the lovely bloke with loads of testosterone who does the Dog Borstal programme on tv., you know, the one who is the police dog trainer. You could take your dog shopping and for a coffee, there was even a little shopping basket underneath. Quaint.

I have a confession to make. I have gone and put down a deposit on something. Why, I couldnt tell you. I really really REALLY can do without buying things this month, especially as I am selling my bears (old, vintage, antique and modern) and some dolls so that I can continue helping Jack.

It is just that I spotted it in my friend Wendy's shop in Ellesmere Port. Actually to be honest, Wendy isn't what you would really term a friend, it is just that in my eyes she is the worlds friend and a special gifted lady. She is always warm and welcoming. Sometimes she gets frazzled but there is a lot of demands I think from shoppers and friends, but she is just this world spirit if you know what I mean. A sort of typical Empress from tarot.

Anyway, where I am going to put it is beyond me. Plus there is F. who really will not not not like this. He will do a lot of pouting and spluttering when I get it I am sure. Only thing is I think "it" is the thing that chose me, not the other way around if you know what I mean.

I know. I know. Realism. But you know things do have vibes and things don't they. For some reason unknown, this little statue doll I have bought (about 4 foot high) is calling to me. She comes into my thoughts and yesterday just kept on coming into my thoughts as if I had to go and sort things so that she could come and stay. Insistent. She is what I would term a "crone " hedge witch, she has her twigs and broom and her cauldron. I might change her a bit, add some pink and sparkles here and there, a bit of Kirks Folly dust... I have put a deposit on her, so she is mine, but I can't get her until next month, when somehow, I have to get her home and she is too heavy too carry. I can't ask F. to go in his van, cos he will splutter enough as it is and will not be a happy bunny at all. He will sulk for months I think. So I have to placate him somehow before she comes.

I also bought a crystal wand of Wendy. I've wanted one for ages, this one is green and pink. Very nice. I will tell you more about it when I have welcomed it and worked with it. I am going to use it in my healing for Jackory.

Talking of healing, my little change of plans and actions yesterday saved me enough energy to do some healing with Jackory which is great.

Well today the other meals planned are turkey rice and veg balls. I have the turkey, I have just got to cook it and the rice. I have some mixed mashed veg from yesterday and then I can put the apricot kernals and the Digestive Enzymes (that I got from http://www.kernelpower.co.uk/) in the middle.

Okay Godlove, Godbless. If you read this please write and say hello! Light a candle, more importantly, for Jackory and send out some love and light to him please

love to all
Gina, Jackory and Loganx

Thursday. Tug of war with scarve today!

To-day is Thursday, and it started off really nice this morning, with the promise of a nice day. Actually to be honest it still is, it is one of those gently rainy summer mornings, the sort that looks like a water colour painting if you know what I mean. Today I am thinking of our "Mara", our lovely Basenji girl, and know that she is looking down on us. The other week I went shopping and when I came in, saw a glimpse of her on my couch. She always loved nature and things around her. Bless you Mara and thanks for coming to visit us. Our thoughts are with you today girl, specially as your other "Mum", my duaghter, is due soon to have her second baby!

Well yesterday was a struggle, Jack refusing most foods, and having to hand feed everything, including milk.

I've got loads to say, dont know where to start really. Start with yesterday. I went to Liddles in Queensferry. I got the bread flour to make loaves in the bread maker I have. Something happened in Liddles, something quite amazing, but I will save that for another day, maybe tomorrow.

Anyway, I made the loaf and it as they say, "turned out nice"!!! I gave some to Jackory and Logan this morning. Jack had a cold nose and played tug of war with my scarf, which was nice. He was maybe the bounciest he has been in say a week or so.

Then I went to Pets at Home to get some treats for them, something I could stuff with the capsules and the apricot kernels and digestive powder. I found something called Natures Menu, which is like lamb, rice and veg balls that you defrost and feed. Also some soft tubular treats that I can stuff. Anyway, when I came home, I stuffed three of the treats with the Urinary Support and the N-tense, and Jack took them, no problem. Logan had a few treats too, so he was happy, and then Jack fell asleep in his crate.

Right now there is fish cooking in the oven for the first dinner of the day for them, it is already 11.31 so we are running late, but never mind.

I was amazed at what you can get for dogs now at Pets at Home. It is about maybe four years since I've been in there, but you can even get a stroller for dogs now, a proper pram to push. It is £30! Also loads of lovely new dog beds that were nice, firm and supportive. Better than the two duvets I have folded up for Logan to lie on.

There is a chicken run from Eglu on Ebay right now in Mold, but it was £90. Now it is up to £155 with about 6 bidders. I am still thinking of it, but I dont want too much of the garden taken up thats the only thing. I am not so bothered about the rats now, but we shall see. I have enough on my plate right now without the chickens really, but it would be lovely one day. I lived with my nan who had chickens and geese, so it brings back a lot of memories really.

It seems my daughter has started too with her baby, so our new baby will be due very soon now, so I will keep you all posted! Thats if anyone but Venus reads these blogs. Thank you so much Venus for lighting a candle for our Jackory. I am sure all your prayers and thoughts are helping him!

I must see to Logan today, try to groom him a bit. He has lost his beautiful Afghan hound smell and has a stronger odour about him today that isn't as nice! - I need to book him in to the groomers really to trim his coat for me. I dont show now, and to be honest it is a weight of me when I finally gave in and had his coat clipped last year. It was so easier to manage, with the M.E. thing I cannot give his coat justice really. Also he looked smart and looked after, he is beginning to look a bit moth eaten really.

I got some ready made type meals in at Liddles too yesterday which will also help me out a bit. I went to bed early yesterday, about half seven and stayed there till 11 when i took the dogs out but I feel a bit more rejuvenated today.

Well time for the fish dinner! - Its quite theraputic typing all of this on the blog. Okay, time for a card for today. Again from The Medicine Womans Deck (have a look at these lovely cards if you can they are really lovely)

21. Dancer (The World in tarot)

This fell from the pack, I love it when they do they seem the most apt cards somehow. Also it helps me out energy wise ! - This card means "dancer in the winds of time".

The affirmation from the books: "The present is my point of power. All light, all love, all energy, pass through me now creating ongoing beauty, balance, and awakening on the path toward infinite bliss. From death, the pause of perfect peace, I am born to dance on top of the world".

It continues: " I am Cosmic Consciousness, an awareness in the now of the many forces at work on every plane of existence in and beyond this world. In a sense, I am what has been referred to as the New Age, when all is in balance and everyone lives in peace and harmony recognising their oneness with eachother. I am the end of an old cycle and the beginning of a new one".

There is so much beauty, simple gorgeous beauty, both in the cards, and in the book. I adore this deck. It is just so positive, it is lovely. Like holding life's boquet, and you pick rose of thought and life's perfume is there to explore. I guess thats what I am trying to do with Jackory, send him peace, love, energy, harmony so he can take that with him on his next pathway, when ever that is. Perhaps it isn't meant to be for a bit yet. It is also nice to think of death as perfect peace. And to be honest, thats what Jack has in his paws, perfect peace. I have always thought of Jackory as a dog that Mary Poppins (bless that character!) as lent to me, as he is "practically perfect".

Please light a candle for Jackory if you are reading this and send him your healing, love and light. Thank you so much - Godlove and thank you Cosmic Love for all your blessings over the last 48 hours (yes, even the struggles yesterday and thank you too for the inspiration as to how to over come them!)

love and light, in the now, and by the now

Gina and Jackory.

Weary Wednesday

Okay so far today, its been very hard work. The things I have for sale to help with vets bills ect aren't selling. Jackory wouldn't eat or take any treats. I'm tired, my shoulders ache and to top it all I want to go to Queensferry to Liddles to do some shopping but I need to go and get some money. The house looks a tip although I've tidied it. For some unknown reason I have been hankering over the last 48 hours to keep chickens in the garden. Why?????

And, on a better note but for some reason it has just totally unsettled me is that my daughter has started to have her second baby. She is in Ireland... So I'm unsettled. I want to hop on a plane and go to her to "look after"...do the grandmotherly thing with all the enthusiasm and energy I had three years before M.E.

And I've been thinking. Reason is kicking in. I can't beat the tumour thing. Its too big too nasty too mean. I feel a bit like David, tackling Golliath but without the courage. Plus, if it is all "meant to be" who am I even as Jack's "mum" to get in the way. I wish wish wish I could just see the bloke who is to have him, you know do a hand over. With Jack well and happy and wagging his tail.

I am cross unhappy sad angry, pining to go to see Gem, wanting I guess normality. I am angry cos I got cross with Jackory this morning who wouldn't take his urinary support or the N-tense indeed he wouldn't take anything.

I daren't look at any more cards. Not yet anyway. I've been really thinking for some reason on these chickens, the only thing that puts me off is the money for the run and the coop, and plus "rats". When you do a search about chickens at home, the inevitable "rat" pops up.

I don't like them very much, or mice. I know they are hard, once there, to be "rat free". Yet God must have put them on our planet for some reason??? And someone phoned for a reading but I am at sea again with everything today and can't ground enough to do a reading.

Maybe I just need a project, something to do. I have to do my paperwork and keep putting it off. And it 's a nice day. Perhaps if we sat out in the garden again Jackory would be keen one eating.

Tomorrow is a new day. Maybe I need to get out, even for a coffee. I need my Redbush tea anyway. I've run out. I love my redbush tea. Like a hug, in a mug.

A cheerier Tuesday

God's kind with his Grace isn't he. Grace is a word that is cropping up all the time for me lately, and a word I have taken a liking to. I have even suggested it as a name for my daughter's baby, should she have a little girl.

I say that because since yesterday we have been blessed with Grace, in so many different ways.

I went to the local market yesterday. I love markets. Probably because my Nan had a market stall; she sold handbags in Chester market. Anyway, I went hunting, for some doggy treats that I could stuff the Apricot kernals in that are a bit bitter. The only thing that Jackory can take them in easily, at the moment, is Mackeral, and Tuna. I worry about the salt content in tinned tuna though; I haven't tried him with fresh tuna yet. Anyway, so off I went, looking for treats, something I could stuff with the kernals!

I came back with some of the dried "sausage" treats, but they went any good, Jackery spat them out. So anyway, I then tried the chewy tooth dog sticks I already had. These were half price in Safeway last week, and have a soft inside that you can pick out. So I picked it out, and stuffed the kernals inside. As it was a long tube, I did this by cutting it up in little rolo shapes. Jack wolved them down (hurrah).

In case you are wondering, here are Jackory's kernals, together with the bag they came in, and also the lovely grinder that my neighbour kindly gave me:

They do smell of apricots when you grind them up. And yes they are bitter. Not initially, if you chew one at first it is just apricoty, then the bitterness creeps in.

Jackory has 15 of them, which is calculated on his weight. When you buy them, if you give the weight, it is all calculated for you.

So that was a bit of a success! Jackory also enjoyed his chicken yesterday, which was lovely to see.

I've noticed the essentials that I need now are things to put the kernals in, and goats milk / natural yoghart. The N-Tense and the urinary support are fine, Jack even has a go at swollowing the capsules.

Anyway, back to the word "grace". I've been wondering what to do about my readings, for one I haven't done any for ages because my energy levels really dropped. Secondly I was disappointed so few people sent in any donation at all, even though they came back for second/third or more readings. Anyway someone phoned yesterday for a reading, out of the blue really. I had to read upstairs, because F. does not like me reading. I enjoyed being back in the "saddle" so to speak, and feel as if I am giving something back to spirit, as they are helping so much with Jackory. And in a funny way, I do feel more energised this morning, and less of an old mangled dishcloth than I felt on Sunday, which is great as I feel I can give more to Jackory.

Jackory does look brighter today. He has stayed by me, choosing to lie down even as we are typing this, which is nice. He has brighter eyes today and is eating on his own without being hand fed. So far though, it is 9.21, and he hasn't had any treatments yet, I am just letting his stomach settle a bit before I give him his N=tense and urinary support. I give those in the morning, and then the digestive enzyme with the kernals in the afternoon.

Also yesterday I was able to pick up on blogs again, and dip into Hay House radio. I love their site! Anyway i was dipping into Venus's blog. She is a lovely lady and I so enjoy her shows on Hay House. She speaks of commonsensical every day things, particularly more apt for women I think, than for men. Anyway, her blog makes me laugh so much . You can link up to her blog on

http://venusandrecht.com/blog/?p=78 (dont forget to read the one on June 28th, it had me in tucks. Absolute tucks.)

Talking of love, life and laughter (which is all in Venus's blog), they say light and laughter heals don't they. I came across stuff about blue light healing in the cancer battles that are on the internet, which is interesting as in the spiritualist churches, when they do their healing sessions, they often put blue lights on. So maybe I ought to get a lamp for Jackory and a blue light bulb! - Also though if I am doing some healing, I always send out a blue indigo violet ray. Anyway my mum brought Jackory a present today:

Yes thats right a little Christmas tree. It lights up with different colours, I had it switched on but you can't see the lights in this picture. I popped in the little doll I made out of wool felting (its a lovely hobby, wool felting).

The reason, well fae spirits love trees and lights dont they, and we could do with some sparkle in the front room. I always love the Christmas tree lights, so this will look lovely in the evenings. Be cheery for us and for Jackory.

Talking anyway a bit more about healing and things like lights, wool too is brilliant. I love working with wool, but love the real stuff, the 100 per cent wool. I always feel calm and serene, specially when I have enough energy to spin wool on my lovely spinner. Out of interest I looked up "sheep" to see the animal spirit guidance, and mostly it is to do with serenity, balance, knowing where you are going, being centred in peace. Nice don't you think. Perhaps I really should get going now with the spinning and make a dog coat for him out of the wool. That would be nice. I know some people say wool is itchy, but somehow I've not found that when I spin and plus the wool gives off a lovely natural lanolin which is great for the hands.

Well it is a nice day today, and so I am going to sit in the garden for a bit with Jackory. F. has worked really hard in the garden, and although it is far from finished, it is almost safe enough to take Logan in there now, plus it is cleared enough to sit in. And sunlight, according to all the stuff I've read is quite good for you, in small amounts any way!

I also before I go quickly need to write about the symptoms that Jack showed:

Symptoms Jack showed:

Needing to go for more wees

Longer wees than normal

Panting more at home and during walks

A bit more agitated or anxious

Straining sometimes when going for number 2's.

What I did to save time was I asked the vet for a water sample bottle, which was free, as I thought at first it could be diabetis (did I spell that right?) This saved a lot of time as I then came home, took a fresh sample, and then took Jackory back with the sample.

Okay off to sit in the garden now. thank you for the light love and laughter God.

Wishing you love, light and laughter

Gina and Jackory.

It's Monday already

Well, tomorrow heralds a week since the news about my Jackory. I've got so much to write about today, I don't know where to start.





Well yesterday I ended up feeling a bit like a worn out dish rag; fortunately F. was good enough to finish off the roast dinner, doing the dishes, and he took the dogs out for their night walk, and this morning's walk. I was too tired to finish off the blog yesterday, and too tired to do any healing for Jackory last evening, or in the night, when I get up to let him out.

Yesterday, I did manage to take some pictures of Jack in the garden. I took one of Logan, but managed to only get his body in not his head!

Yes, the necklace around Jack is for healing and love. I can't remember the name of the stones now, it is rose something or other. I always feel their comfort when I wear them, so I have put them on Jackory. I also means they are with him all the time, even when I cant be.

Okay food updates. I cant give any updates yesterday, I was just too tired to think about it and today is a new day. Today though ~

breakfast: poached eggs and toast with the urinary support and the N-tense on the toast. Jack didnt like or didn't fancy this, so this ended up in the bin.

breakfast 2: about an hour or so later on - chicken from yesterdays roast chicken, mixed up with the N=tense and the urinary support. Jack ate probably 95 per cent of this, which is okay.

Plans for 2nd / 3rd meal: well I have more chicken let so will probably cook that up with a bit of potato and add some sort of gravy to it to add in the apricot kernals and the powderd digestive aid that came with it. 3rd meal: probably just some milk and yoghart today, with the aloe vera in it as Jack ate quite a bit of the chiken this morning.

A note on portion sizes. This is difficult with a dog. I am fine with a puppy, can handle that okay, with an adult dog you have to sort of get your thinking cap on. The portions are just smaller. I think the time is important. I would have liked to have given Jackory some milk/natural yoghart with the aloe vera digestive aid in it, but we had a visit from "My Mum" ! this morning early.

That sort of made everything upside down, especially as I was tired. So I will have to give the milk mix later on. I got way laid from Mum, as Jackory lay down in his bed for the healing that she gives him, I tried to explain he is just getting used to healing now and will move about now for healing in the places that he wants, but she wouldn't listen and so went on about "when the time is right". This ended up in a few tears, as Jack is important. I don't want him to suffer at all, dont want any pain. He has had that in his life, when he was a stray. I promise him every day I will make as good as I can for him, and thats what I want to do.

Anyway she only stayed an hour. I ended up going back to bed, taking Jack with me. He lay on the floor by me and we listened to some healing music. I fell asleep and only woke up around 11.20, to find that Logan had rumaged through the kitchen bin and managed to get in the sealed bag in there that had contained the chicken carcass. Needless to say he then went for a wee in F.'s "grotto" the place F. keeps his model railway, so it is a bit smelly as I type this! I have no bleach in, so just had to use some baking powder, washing up liquid and washing powder. I need to go and give the floor another wash down.

Havent looked at my cards today. I need to balance things a bit more so I can cope with the M.E. bit and Jackory. F. was quite good yesterday and that helped.

Still no more candles on Jacks candle site. But never mind, I'll ask "spirit" to get the news out!

love and light (*and some laughter, please God)

Gina and Jackory

Today: Jacks looking a bit better

Well, Jack today has a lovely coat on him, glistening (probably the mackeral!); his nose feels a bit damp and just slightly cold, which is better than it was a couple of days ago. Needless to say he has been totally spoilt over the last few days, actually i spoil him all the time, just more so recently.

Waking: a treat, one of those joint bones (Jack likes these, but I have to break it up into pieces otherwise he wolfs it down mostly whole)

Breakfast today: white fish (Sainsburies special basic ) with some goats milk that it cooked in)
I gave the digestive aid, the aloe vera one, in a syringe, Jack didn't seem to mind.

F. helped out a bit by taking both dogs out for a walk, I asked not too fast or too long and he seemed to respect that which was great and Jack came back not too puffed. It has helped me today as I feel really tired. I was really tired last night and didn't do my normal healing session with Jack, instead when up at 3 to let him out, I brought a duvet down and lay by him and did some hands on then.

I am a bit fed up today because no one so far has lit a candle for Jackory, and that would be nice to see. I have given so many, probably a couple of hundred readings out to people having faith they may send something in, and they haven't although they have come back for more readings. I was hoping at least a few would light a candle or two for him, it is nice to know there is support out there and people have him in their thoughts.

I am thinking of just giving up on the Doggeanie website. It costs money every month to have it up on the net, and although I havent done any readings lately with being poorly, I don't think I want to do any now because of energy, and because I have so much on my plate right now. I am still not a hundred per cent, so I need to be brave I think and give it up. The Wheel of Fortune year is hitting me hard this year; for me the wheel is turning in all aspects of my life, and bringing with it unexpected changes. I am even thinking I would prefer to do animal healing and animal communication, maybe some animal spirit readings and forge ahead with that. I am saddened by the number of people that have just ignored paying even £1 in return for a reading although heartened by a few who have sent in some payments or sent me thanks.

I usually dip into my packs for some guidance, only I just haven't lately, it has been a few weeks since I have done that. They are lying forlorn in my booshelf! - I thought yesterday about them, and so today got reaquainted with them. I picked the Medicine Womans deck. I love this deck, they can be expensive but they are nice gentle cards and have a nice feel, they are quite positive and seem a good choice with all the healing going on! Oddly enough being low on energy I took out the pack just now, and gave them a shuffle and almost instantly no. 20 dropped out, Judgmeent.

Judgement in tarot is linked to the Angels! - But interestingly, it is double the Wheel of fortune. ie. 10+10. I often think 10 is about completion, end of things, the glimmer of things anew. A bit like the stars in the sky, heralding the end of one day and coming just before the dawn of a new day.

In the book, Medicine Woman says:
"I recognise the circle of life brings undeviating justice to all things, events, and beings as all unite in consciousness. I realize my every thought, word, and movement affect all creation. Through time, the great circle returns all things to their maker".

oh crumbs. Tears now. I know. Jackory said in my dream months before the symptoms, that he couldnt stay with me any longer. He wanted to be a search and rescue dog, and the man came down and put his harness on him. I am so proud of my Jackory, and honoured to know he has told me his next pathway. And honoured to know I have a dog with me that will go on to save lives. I told you he was special.

The circle of life. I am thinking of someones website, Dorothy's called the Circle of Light. Often Dorothy says things that are often tough to hear, but they have a spiritual tenderness and a spiritual awakening. The Circle of Life, entwined with the circle of light. One and the same. I just wish I could make the journey with Jackory, and look down on him as he begins his second life.

Also, that first paragraph resonates somewhat. It is a bit like music, it has the harmony and the melody. It sings out the present circumstances. I guess what I am trying to do with people lighting candles, is uniting us. When people come together, there is unity, but also a power, a power of thoughts, prayers, healing. I just dont want my Jackory to suffer, I want him to go in his sleep. He is such a beautiful dog. I wonder so many times why good spirits that come to pass their glory and light in this world pass on with so much difficulty and pain; I think of my step father who never said a bad word or unkind word about anyone. He was totally content with what he had and never hankered for more. He died at 47 years of age with cancer and cancer isn't kind. It is relenting, like some horrible monster that never lets go. And we can all think of people who are well, for years and years, and spread pain and fear where ever they go (thinking of Africa and one certain politician here!)

Maybe Jack is needed; maybe some big event will pass, like the Two Towers, where dogs are so badly needed, so God is gathering his troops now. Maybe there is a lovely man out there in search and rescue, who will get a lovely young puppy one day, and it will be my Jackory. I pray the man will be good to him, will enjoy their days together, and will love him and take care of him as much as I do.

I cant bear this you know. We all have to go on individually don't we. For me the only brightness, the only crystal in all of this is the search and rescue thing, and what I really would like at the moment is a healing crystal wand.

We need you guys to come together then, to unite, as the Circle of Life and the Circle of Light unite. We need you all, if ever you have had a reading of me unite with us now in this one act of sending some love and light to my Jackory, for healing. Healing comes in many forms, it may be Jackory does pull through this, that his search and rescue life is just not right now, or it may be healing, to send this special special dog on his pathway with all our love, and all our life light around him, sparkling, so he can come back full of vitality, full of love, cradled in everything that is positive about humanity, and you know then every time his tail wags, it will be like a lovely bright wand, bringing to the person he is rescuing the healing and love that we send with him.

Light a candle for him. Please.

Jackory seems a bit brighter today

Well, yesterday went fine really, other than Jack not looking as happy as normal, there was just a touch of despondency about him. Having said that, the weather was iffy, with rain and maybe a few thundery showers around, and Jack is a smashing weather dog! Much better than a cukoo clock! He knows within I'd say around 20mins if it is going to rain, and he doesnt like storms much at all. While all the preparations and meals were going on, here is a picture of Logan, taking it easy!

Anyway, today he seems brighter. I stayed up later than normal to let him out, and then got up around 3 am to let him out again. He is taking to having a wee in the yard we have and then walking by the back yard door, as the floor stays dry there! He waits there till I open the door and bring him back in again. He never did like getting his paws dirty at all, and always will clean them when he comes back from a walk.

I've noticed whenever I do the hands off healing, Logan will often come in and lie down between me and Jackory. In many ways I prefer this to the hands on, because Jack settles better, and also because it includes his aura in it too.

Okay so far today:

Breakfast: scrambled free range eggs, followed by a little milk with some of the aloe vera in it.

I've been using a syringe from a kiddies neurofen to pick up the aloe with,so I know how much I am giving to Jackory. Jack ate the eggs, but I had to hand feed him this. He didn't much care for the milk, but he drank a tiny bit of it.

mid morning snack: a small piece of thin toast with the Raintree urinary support and the N-Tense; I break the capsules and spread it on the toast. Jack ate a piece of the toast but then I noticed he just licked the toast that I had remaining, which was okay, as he was licking up the most important - the powder from the capsules!

I went to Sainsburys inbetween the breakfast and the snack. To get in yet some more shopping! I went initially to get the budget fish that they do, the frozen white fish, but came away from a container of fresh mackeral. I've never cooked mackeral. Actually I am supposed to have it as I am on a diet and need to loose weight, so I will taste it after I've cooked it! I had to ask the man at the fish counter and he said to grill it. I intend to grill it later and mix it with some of the apricot kernals.

Logan seems quiet these days, don't know if it is because of Jackory or because of him being neutered, now a couple of months back. My vets bills are getting bigger and bigger, but never mind. Talking of Logan, just before Jackory got diagnosed, I treated myself to a collar for him, it is called a DOGMATIC and it is magical, just magic. With the ME bit, sometimes it is a lot to take him for a walk, specially with him being a sight hound, if he spots something it is an instant pull, and he is big, big big.... But with the Dogmatic, it is like taking a chihuahua for a walk. Just a joy, and not so much of a problem now if he sees anything. I will take a picture, the one i bought was the luxury padded leather. One because I always think leather is strong, and two because I find that a lot of materials, unless it is really soft leather, take off Logan's hair.

THE DOGMATIC

Well it is expensive, but it works and I have to say to them, well done. It is just a joy and a gift really specially for me right now.

The other thing that I got, thinking of Jackory, now is something for his water. I read that tumours do not like oxygen much, so it seems from what I have read on the net, that oxygen is important. Oddly enough there is a lot of stuff about it with ME too. The man I saw in Liverpool, the ME clinic there, said there was no basis to say it helped with ME, but you know common sense tells me it may help. I'm thinking of the fact that when you have a baby, you get given gas and air. THink how that makes you feel!!!! Ok, so if youre a bloke, you wont know, but I remember the upbeatness of the gas and air. Also if you look at the facts on this, in normal air apparantly, there is about 19 or 20 per cent oxygen. In the gas and air they give you in hospital, it is around 50 per cent I think. So, when you receive the gas and air, it doubles your oxygen intake, doesnt it. There is a real expensive machine you can buy, if you are human, but it costs a few thousand pound to buy. Which is ridiculous really, as not very many normal people I know can just afford to go and buy it. It is like buying a car really! - So, thinking about improving OXYGEN:

The only thing I can think of right now is water. So I boil up water regularly and change it approx every two hours. Also I got this:

It is a pet coaster for water from MAGNOPULSE.

I have to go now, but more about this later on.

Okay its 2300 now or there abouts. It has been another tiring day. F. is trying to fix the fences up in the garden, which will be nice as it will hopefully be all beautiful for Jackory to lie in!

Anyway, I cooked up the mackeral and it was really nice. So both me and the dogs had it for our lunch. I did them lamb for tea, and you know when I took my library books back our local church was in the centre, so I asked them if they would bless jackory, and they said yes. So, to cut a story short, he got blessed today by our local church which was nice. Then later I took him to a Wiccan friend I know called Wendy, who does some healing too, and she gave him a love for me.

I am sad to find no one else has lit a candle for Jackory, am determind to keep on going. After all, if you change God's name back to front, you get Dog.

Love and light, to all (please dont forget to light a candle for Jackory!)

Thankyou so much

Gina Jackory and Logan.

Jackory: difficult news - a growth in the bladder.

I haven't posted in ages, too many things going on at home and also a bit of a struggle myself with my CFS/M.E. (diet and excercise!)

Today though I feel upbeat for the first time in ages and it seems as if my spirit friends are giving me some energy to work through my days, especially now that only a few days ago, shortly after my birthday, Jackory was diagnosed with a bladder tumour. It is a tumour that is at the mouth of his bladder, so my vet (a special star spirit with a lot of compassion) said it can't be operated on successfully.

Now, he is a lovely dog, he is special, for lots of reasons I wont go into now. Anyway, he is still happy, still enjoying some walks although he is panting a bit, but still wagging his tail.

I searched the net on cancer and came up with a few ideas. So I have been shopping in big ways for Jackory:
Apricot kernals
digestive enzimes
Star of bethleham
Al0e Vera
Apple seeds
sprouted flax powder.

I have a few other things but these are what I've started Jackory on. Yesterday we started on the apple seeds, I chopped them up as I didn't have a grinder.

It is strange how spirit works really. Yesterday my neighbour took some fencing spare and she asked how my dogs were as she had spotted me in the vets. I told her and she gave me a Starbucks grinder. I love starbucks coffee, and simply adore this grinder! I used it today, to grind up the apricot kernals.

I am putting him on three meals a day so far.
Today he has had:

Breakfast: - fish / soya milk/ a bit of flax powder (fed by hand initially, Jack is not so keen on fish!) followed by a little digestive enzymes in a bit of natural yoghart (put this on his paws!)

Lunch: pilchards (washed in water to take away some of the salt), with some kernals which I had ground up. This smelt a bit of the kernals and Jack didn't seem to like it, so I mixed it with 2 small new potatoes I had mashed with a bit of butter and natural yoghart.

Logan helped here (he will eat anything) and after seeing Logan take some, jack ate all of his, and licked the bowl.

snack: natural yoghart in a bit of milk, with a tiny bit of aloe vera juice, followed by 1 capsule of Raintree's " n-tense." Jack tried to take the first capsule, but it broke, he bravely tried to eat it, so I gave him a bit of water. The 2nd capsule I needed to give him, is Raintree's urinary support. I emptied the capsule on a small piece of bread and butter and Jack woolfed this down.

I also have been busy this morning not just with feeding, Jack has been searching for a little place he can just be (under the piano stool, inside the pantry.

Somehow I was inspired to take Logan's crate through to the front room, from F.'s grotto (My partners own model railway cave) and put it in the front room. With a throw over the top it looks just fine, Jack's cave! Where he can relax and doze.



We've been doing some healing work with Jack too, - so if you do reiki or absent healing or simply want to send him some love and light, you are most welcome. I took him to Talking Horses lady, Catherine Walker a couple of days ago for some healing, and every day and evening I do some healing moments with him. I've also got a few healing tapes, some from Ron Hayes in Liverpool, and play those for Jack.

I'm tired now so will rest up a bit. My readings for now have taken a bit of a back step but hopefully I will be able to do some more soon!

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Grace with her wings and dress

and her she is without them, wearing her long sleeved cotton baby grow.